Where to Now?

Three significant events happened to me this past weekend. In retrospect, I can see they are are all related. They have helped me to refocus on my defined life purpose: which is to create a humanly compatible planet. This purpose has been an active part of my life through my twenty-five years of diversity work. The driving-force of this work, all along, has been my continual learning about the power of spirituality as the essential source for creating this vision.

The first event was a meeting with five of my dearest business friends. We met to try to understand how the business environment is changing and its impact on our businesses. The more we talked, the more I experienced increasing anxiety about what we are selling as a business. The anxiety gave way to fear and I began thinking about creating the next gimmick that could be popular and profitable, but having no direct connection to my purpose. The reason I call it a gimmick is that the diving motivation was trying to figure out what people would be attracted to and buy in great quantity, rather than would it lead to greater human compatibility. Even while thinking through the process, I could feel something flawed about my motivation. I can see now that my motivation was driven out of scarcity, profit, and a lack of faith in myself that by staying the course, the path would reveal itself.

The second event is conversations with my daughters. These always tend to create an easy environment of in-depth sharing. First, I feel I can tell them anything that's on my mind. Second, they ask questions for greater clarification that inevitably lead to greater introspection on my part. Or I simply perceive that greater depth is where the real answers are. So, I picked the right moment to say to them, "Remember, always be true to yourself. Be sure to do what you truly love in your life. Whatever you need will follow." One of them asked, "Like what?" I said, "Like trying to make the world better or treating someone nice who might be having a hard day or doing what your heart tells you when you feel confused." But most of all, remember that what you do is telling the world something about who you are as a person. And that is what the world remembers most. At that moment, I realize that I am not only talking about myself, but I have two incredible facilitators.

Now to the dream. Last night I had a vivid dream of four people, each having a role in bringing about a compatible planet. All four had different roles to play and all four were experiencing different degrees of anxiety and fear. As I focused on my role there were three pieces in place and a fourth piece missing. No matter how hard I tried by "doing things" nothing clarified the missing part. I felt very frustrated. I finally gave up trying to figure out the fourth piece and slept through the night. When I awakened this morning, I had an overwhelming feeling the fourth piece is there but I still cannot consciously see it. I also know that sometime in the next day or so, it will appear to me from "the blue nowhere." By the way, I'm sure the dram was triggered by a movie my daughters and I watched last night titled, "the Girl in the Cafe."

I am equally certain that these three events are not accidental, but all a connected sequence to serve as a course correction for me to refocus on my self-defined purpose--which is spiritually sourced.

Bill