I recently had conversation with one of best friends. He shared with me that he takes a day off every month to be with himself. The day is unplanned and evolves, and is driven by a force within himself. It's like his inner self knows exactly the activities he wants and needs.
The major lesson in his Special Day is trust. Not external trust of others or even himself, but an inner, probably spiritual trust. You can begin to see that such a trust in one's self means a complete loss of control. Because you don't know where it may lead you or the "inner game" you may be participating in! If control is vitally important to you then your Special Day would be one which is well-planned with no deviations or probable surprises.
On the other hand, if you are an adventurer of "inner space," then a spiritually driven special Day per month is perfect. That's exactly what I have in mind for myself today. Just writing this blog has already created a process within me of foreboding or the rumblings of fear. There must be something down there that is just waiting to come to my conscious awareness. I will find out before the day is over and let you know.
In the meantime, why don't you ask yourself how much you trust your self being totally out of control. What might you learn or already have inkling of. Particularly, if you have had this feeling of foreboding for some time. The programmed psyche is a truly mysterious thing. But nothing compared with your spiritual consciousness when it demands to be "heard." Again, I know this from experience.
If you read this blog early enough today, why don't you experiment with me on a half-day basis. Then share with me what you experienced. Or not! Well, "I'm off to see the Wizard, the Wonderful Wizard of Oz!"
Ciao,
Bill